Saturday, August 28, 2010

just an essay i did figured id share it comment please!

i know life changes everday some for the better some for the worst, but this was something i truly did not expect. The story i am about to reveal begins with divorce but ends with new frendships, and a new love.
My parents divorced two years ago. it was unexpected and it happend at the worst possible time. we were coming home from school when mom texted me saying, "um, i don't think i am coming home today." i looked over at kricia with a disturbed look. i thought she was just kidding at first but later realized she has meant it. the first thought that had come to minf wa " is this really happening?" the most awful thing was dad was at the hospital with four broken ribs with no way to come home and watch us.we were stranded.. needless to say they later got divorced.
After the divorce i realized how much of an impact it really had on me i felt empty inside, worthless. i didn't fully understand why things happend the way they did. The love i had recieved from my mom was no longer there. i wanted to be loved not to be thrown away. i felt unworthy; guilty and ashamed like i wasn't even good enough for my own mom.i didn't know what to do, part of my life and learning was gone. mom was the one i looked up to ; she would get me out of trouble and guide me. i was missing out on the lessons a mom would give, so i was left with trying to seek out help from someone else. i was lost.
to my surprise i found a church family that filled that emptiness in my heart. the first day there, all of the members of the church welcomed us with opened arms. i was new and they accepted me before they even knew me and that lifeted my spirits. they had shown me unconditional love, that even though my mon wasn't there that i was still loved. they helped me through a tough time, helped me realize that it was nothing i did that caused my parents to divorce. They filled in for my mom and tought me new lessons and guided me to where i should haven been. the love they showed me , revived me; i had a new passion, a new love that filled my heart, a purpose.
i will never forget what happend that day or the pain i felt, but i am filled with a new hope and a new love that i will always keep with me. those who helped me through that event are now my friends and family. i can wake up every day and know that someone loves me and, knows what had been going on and were willing to help. love you guys!

Friday, August 6, 2010

I Love To Read!!!!!!!!!!!!!

It's amazing how much information you can retrieve from books! so many different books have different ways of showing information. Some show different viewpoints from a certain situation or make you feel an emotion you have never felt before. It shows you the positive, negative, sad sides ect... of things. They can make you understand things, understand how people react and that sometimes if you were in that situation you would do the very same thing, even though you criticize tht person for doing so. They can open your mind to so many things. sometims they may even suprise you!!! lol depends on the book!